Lately, I have had trouble with measuring things. I ordered bamboo blinds for the windows in our family room from an online site. They arrived quickly, as promised. When I pulled them out of the box, I was unsure how I would install them on my own, but all the hardware was included. I held them up to the window and realized they were an inch longer than the inside frame. My hubby asked, “Did you measure first?” I absolutely measured twice and wrote it down! Luckily, I could send them right back, but I still do not have window shades for fear that I will mess up the order again. I also bought a TV console that was two inches shorter than I expected. Could there be a problem with my vision when I am filling out the forms online? This is a good excuse to invite experts over to measure and install my home decor. Then, I ordered four “photo” fans, but instead received four foot fat head photos on foam board. The internet is not my favorite way to shop.
It is difficult for me to turn these events into a positive lesson. When I get out the yard stick, I stress about whether I measure up to other’s expectations and I am sure I fall short. How can I be a good wife when I am traveling out of town? How can I be a good mother when my children live far away? FaceTime and social media certainly help me to stay in contact, but the personal touch is missing. Quite frankly, I need hugs and kisses or I will wither away. How can I be a good friend when I divide my time between two homes? I practically nag friends for lunch dates or event gatherings whether I am North or South. No one really wants a part time friend. How can I measure up?
Doubts about my value invade my mind when I spend too much time alone. Hubby reminds me that God is always with me even when I am home alone or lonely. He doesn’t try to measure me or I would smack him. He accepts me as I am and assures me that I am valuable. I am lucky to have been really spoiled by a family that filled my days with excitement and laughter. The days are so much quieter without them. Fortunately, this is perfect for the life of a writer or a reader, which I do quite a bit now.
My prayer is to find a rhythm of life that is suitable for my health and boosts happiness without relying on chocolate so much. If you are looking for the same, let’s make a weekly date. A leisurely walk each day would be better than the hours I have been spending on the computer. Motivation starts with companionship! Sports are a big part of our life, but mostly from the couch these days. Please come get us out of the house for some dancing, golf, tennis, bowling, or hopscotch before my muscles forget their purpose.
I do have other outside activities. I still volunteer for charitable causes, and love all that the church offers for spiritual and mental well being. Once again it is hard to be consistent with my efforts when I travel so much.
I may not always measure up to everyone’s expectations as a family member, volunteer, friend, or teammate, but I do really want to develop healthy relationships. Hubby still boosts me with daily encouragement. I anticipate his homecoming each day by putting down my cell phone (unless granddaughter Lilliana calls), and getting dinner ready. Needless to say I don’t follow a recipe that requires measuring. When it comes to numbers, I would like to put away the measuring stick and simply count all the things that make me grateful. We all can count on God’s love which is infinite.